If you don't love me, someone else will
Because in you, my dreams i could not fulfill
You loved me once and i threw it all away
Now i fight for your attention each day
i use to think that without you i'd be lost
But i know i can get through it without a cost
I told myself that i hated you, but i was wrong
It's just love that happens to be so strong
I'm not sure if i could do this anymore
i'm confused and i feel like my heart --> its tore

Today, Tomorrow, and the day after that

Is looking ahead in life a bad thing? Worrying about your future, and over analyzing things is a disaster waiting to happen right? What is right and what works for everyone. Some people take things day by day is that okay too? What if you plan and everything just falls apart? Lately ive been working on myself, i have to focus on myself. Highschool is hectic and realisticly i shoudlnt be okay but the truth about it is i am just fine and life will move along.

Six Months

So Life has continued, and your still not here. Amazingly some people grow up and leave the childish shit behind. In SIX MONTHS i will legally be considered an adult, theoretically ill still be a "foster kid" though, because technically i don't graduate till May 30, 2012. Where i'll be living i am still not sure. Who will be taking care of me, myself probably, because so called "staff" don't seem to care. I am almost 18 and i will be on my own soon the truth about it is life won't be changing much because i still won't have people there, i'll be doing what i've been doing most of my life taking care of myself. I'm not giving up though...i am going to fight till the end and SAVE THE WORLD one day!!

Photography

Not living Enough//People these day

So lately i've been told "Lizbeth, you are not living enough" and often they also tell me " You need someone in your life" well honestly, i think people should not try to judge me before they take the time to know me. I do live life, just because i do not live it the way people tell me to live it doesn't mean that i am not living life. If anything i live life to the fullest, just not your way. I have slowly learned that there is no way in hell, that you can trust anyone on this campus and if so then good for you. How can you possibly have someone if not everyone is true. How can anyone possibly have anyone around here if everyone acts like complete jerks. How is it even possible to have someone, when there is no one. I would love to have someone, but at the same time is it even worth the pain, because somehow i always end up being hurt, i always end up being lost. Someone, how can i find you?

Sometimes I imagine

Imagining has always been my escape from real life. I always seem to runaway from my problems and I imagine i am in someplace better. I imagine things so differently, and happily. Not realizing that being in the air so high and away from everyone is nearly impossible.

A.P.A

APA formatting is a very useful, organized way to keep essays in tact. Citing a source means to gather up information to add in an essay that was either not known knowledge or words taken from someone else after it has been added to the essay you have to "cite" the source meaning get the information about the stuff you used from whereyou got the information from like a title, author, date of publication, and page number. If the writer is using the text of another website it might be too long and it won’t sound right if it uses the exact same words.Causing the writer to have to paraphrase the sentence. A reference page is the page where all references are listed alphabetically with all the information necessary. I will use the APA format in my essay, and it will be very useful to readers,to know ehere i got the information from and so i won't be taking other peoples work.

CITATION:
Someren, Matt. (N.D.) APA Format. May 12th, 2010,http://prezi.com/w2c1xzp6eaee/apa-format

Finding someone special

Like i have been told by many and even myself i am a very indecisive person, i obviously have a hard time making decisions. I am still getting to know myself but i realized that this whole time that i have been at S.P.A i finally found someone who makes me speechless. Choosing my words before i say them has not always been my conceern but when im around this person im scared i might say the wrong thing. It's like i dont' even know what to say. Im nervous when im around him. I smile everytime i talk about him. His eyes make melt. The thing is it's just a little crush which im scared to do anything about. Then again i want to do something about, but what. I always think to myself how funny and ammusing this person is. I want to be happy here and all relationships seem to cause here is drama, and that is what i don't want. i found someone special, i thought that would be impossible to do here but yes he is special to me and i want it to stay that way. May i also add, that another very special person on this campus would have to be my play brother also known as Travonne T, although he is just my "play" brother to me it feels as if he is my real brother. He has been the only guy that has actually stands by myside even when we get in fights and he stops talking to me. He gives me better advice than any other guy has given me. Many people see him as a trouble child, i see him as my brother the one that i will always be there for no matter what. What can i say i love him. I was asked to go surfing but i said no because i had thought i was going to Disney Land for the first time, now it turns out that my passes with that person got pulled to i can't even go anywhere this weekend making me very angry.This umm guy ive been talking about is going to be there so it would be awsome if someone cancelled or something.This weekend i hope goes good and i hope that i get to spend atleast some of my time with this special guy.

Thursday and Friday

Minimum days are amazing but to top it off with first prom then an all day BBQ was amazing. Thursday was a very hectic day for a lot of students here at S.P.A only because it was prom night! As soon as i got of school i went home and started doing peoples hair and make-up i didn't want to get ready too early, so i decided i would get ready at around 4:00 we had to be ready at 5:15. I got ready just in time, as i walked out front i saw my prom date which i was very enthusiastic to see. It was beautiful we matched and he got me a little present that i will keep forever. We then all started getting on the bus, the bus ride was interesting and at times awkward i didn't know what to say or i didn't want to say the wrong thing. As we arrived i felt very elegant because the Grand Del Mar employees served us. The night just kept getting better and better but my favorite part of all was the bus ride home with my date relaxing and sleeping in his arms. I felt safe and i loved it. Friday morning i woke up very early making me tiered since the night before was prom but thankfully we had an amazing school event which made it a pretty interesting day. Later on that Friday though was a very scary moment for me. i saved someones life but yet i couldn't even save my own. I got stung by a bee and i died in Adrianna's hands twice i got helicoptered over to Palomar hospital which i stayed for a great while on breathing machines and all sorts of scary medical instruments, but overall Friday and Thursday were amazing.

vietnam soldier

Vietnam War Timeline

Lizbeth m. on Dipity.

Life as it is...

Every morning I wake up with this pain in my heart. I feel emptiness in my stomache and my face is filled with tears. I wake up with fear not knowing what im scared of, im shaking, and trembling, hiding but not knowing what im hiding of. Maybe I do know it might be the sun that will not turn off :) It might be the fact that im not in your arms. It might even be that I don't feel worth being there. I lost many loved ones and i feel like im loosing you too. Your hand is slowly slipping away.

The Earthquake and My Experience

Yesterday, there was a sudden shake as Heather and I were at home talking. At fisrt I thought it was just someone shaking my couch so I looked back and there was noone there. At the time I was distracted by all the drama and comotion going on that the first tremor was nothing. When I was younger I would always practice going under my desk if there were ever to be an earthquake, the second tremble that I felt was much scarier I never thought I would ever feel an earthquake like that in San Diego.

10SSO

When people apologise, they say it makes you feel better inside. Today i decided to apologise to someone for something i don't belive i should have apologised for in the first place. Apologising is great though it may help release some tension. On March 12 it is Travonne's and Lerontae's birthday im buying Travonne pro clubs and i need to find out what Lerontae wants. Softabll is amazing we are down to seventeen girls, coach is either cutting four girls today or tomorrow.

10SSO

My Favorite cartoon character would have to be Stewie from family guy. I like him because he is always making me laugh, and he always has his cute little moments as well. Stewie is a very intresting character, who i enjoy watching when ever i get the chance.

Plato

10SSO

Things have been a lot better lately, I am somewhat getting to where I want to be. Where I can understand life a little better. Changes are good sometimes. I have softball practice today. It's pretty exciting. There is a basketball game today, but the person I love to watch play is probably not going to play because his back is hurting lately. Number three is absolutley the best guy on campus. I am so happy. He always has a way to make me smile.

10SSO

Yesterday was pretty intresting. I had a softball meeting, i really want number 4, that's if i even make it. People are confusing including myself. There is noone who has fully figured me out yet.

10SSO

I feel as if I am a failure. Sometimes my mind tells me that i can't succeed, that I can not do anything right. I wish that I felt a little more confident about achieving my goals. Softball is coming up which hopefully will keep my grades up. I really need a motivator because at this point right now i feel alone.