Finding someone special

Like i have been told by many and even myself i am a very indecisive person, i obviously have a hard time making decisions. I am still getting to know myself but i realized that this whole time that i have been at S.P.A i finally found someone who makes me speechless. Choosing my words before i say them has not always been my conceern but when im around this person im scared i might say the wrong thing. It's like i dont' even know what to say. Im nervous when im around him. I smile everytime i talk about him. His eyes make melt. The thing is it's just a little crush which im scared to do anything about. Then again i want to do something about, but what. I always think to myself how funny and ammusing this person is. I want to be happy here and all relationships seem to cause here is drama, and that is what i don't want. i found someone special, i thought that would be impossible to do here but yes he is special to me and i want it to stay that way. May i also add, that another very special person on this campus would have to be my play brother also known as Travonne T, although he is just my "play" brother to me it feels as if he is my real brother. He has been the only guy that has actually stands by myside even when we get in fights and he stops talking to me. He gives me better advice than any other guy has given me. Many people see him as a trouble child, i see him as my brother the one that i will always be there for no matter what. What can i say i love him. I was asked to go surfing but i said no because i had thought i was going to Disney Land for the first time, now it turns out that my passes with that person got pulled to i can't even go anywhere this weekend making me very angry.This umm guy ive been talking about is going to be there so it would be awsome if someone cancelled or something.This weekend i hope goes good and i hope that i get to spend atleast some of my time with this special guy.